Chapter 861 Can’t Control My Heart
Jin Yao lowered her head and stretched out her hand, revealing a small light yellow pill in her palm.
Grandma Chang was surprised: "Why is this medicine still in your hands? Didn't you put it in the ginseng soup?"
Jin Yao slowly shook her head.
"Your Majesty, why didn't you let go?" Grandma Chang was very surprised. "This slave got this with great difficulty. My Majesty, do you... regret it again?"
Jin Yao still shook her head.
She just sat like this, and after a long time, she whispered: "Originally, I made a big decision. But somehow, when I saw him, I lost my courage. I... really I don’t want to plot against him like this.”
Tears fell from the corners of her eyes again.
"Hey." Grandma Chang sighed and wiped her eyes with a handkerchief, "When I was in the palace, I never cried. Now in the palace, I have shed all the tears for more than ten years. Look, slave. It’s really heartbreaking.”
"Mommy, I love him sincerely and don't want to treat him this way." Jin Yao choked and said, "But I really don't have much time... What should I do?"
Grandma Chang sighed: "Either way, forget it. Let's live quietly and not worry about this matter."
"I also want to be quiet and not care about anything. But I stay in this palace and look at him every day. I can't control my heart." Jin Yao cried and said, "I am also a woman. Is it wrong to want the love of my man and to have children with him? Why does the emperor refuse to give it to me? My brother said that I always make trouble, do I want to make trouble? I just don’t understand, what am I? Where is wrong!"
When Grandma Chang saw her crying like this, she also shed tears.
"My Lady, please stop crying. You are right about everything, but what is wrong is that God is unfair." Grandma Chang sighed, "You are too soft-hearted... This Acacia Pill will do no harm to the Emperor's dragon body. "
"But..." Jin Yao hesitated, "What will happen if the emperor finds out later? If he is angry... I don't know what to do."
"No matter how angry the emperor is, what can he do to the empress?"
"I'm not afraid of what he will do to me, I just don't want him to dislike me..." Jin Yao whispered, "The emperor only has one queen in his heart now. I'm really unwilling to do so. I also want the emperor to You have me in your heart, rather than using this method to get him."
Aunt Chang said: "If it had been before, that would have been the case. Your Majesty has plenty of time to slowly make the Emperor like you. But now time waits for no one. You also said that you can't wait any longer."
"I understand all of this. But I don't know why, as soon as I saw him, I... I couldn't make up my mind." Jin Yao lowered her head and covered her face, "I'm so useless... I hate myself! "
Grandma Chang was also at a loss.
After Jin Yao stopped crying and her mood gradually calmed down, she asked: "What are your plans in your heart? This medicine..."
"Let me think about it again, let me think about it again."
"Your Majesty, it's better to make a decision as soon as possible," Mother Chang said softly, "Now that the Queen is not in the palace, it is convenient for you to do anything. When she comes, the Emperor will be in Fengyi Palace every night, and there will be no one else to interfere. room?"
Jin Yao shook her head: "But not necessarily."
"Why do you say that?"
"Have you forgotten that the Empress Dowager is now preparing for a big draft?" Jin Yao said, "This draft is to fill the harem, and to choose a princess for Prince Qin. The palace will definitely be there by then. There will be newcomers, can the Queen still dominate the Emperor alone?"