Chapter 1311

"Next..." Zhuang Jia murmured, her eyes became empty, and her voice was very low, "Next, I'm probably going to see a doctor..."

...

No appointment this time.

When I arrived at the clinic, the psychiatrist happened to have time and received Zhuang Jia.

Dr. Zhang was a little surprised that he hadn't seen Zhuang Jia coming over for a long time.

"How are you doing recently?"

"I don't know if it's good or not." Zhuang Jia lay on the couch in the consulting room, and said slowly, "If you mean suspicious, cranky, self-pity, these problems seem to have always been there, but the fear and rejection of men , not as strong as before."

"Oh?" Dr. Zhang asked, "What reason do you think helped you overcome your psychological barrier?"

Zhuang Jia thought for a while and replied: "It should be love. I found that everyone has ambitions in the process of interacting with others. Some of them are well-intentioned ambitions. They want to please you and want to be with you. Intimacy; some malicious intentions, want to see you out of embarrassment, want to make you bad.

Being ambitious is a normal thing in interpersonal communication. I don't need to be afraid. As long as I keep a safe distance, they can't hurt me. "

Doctor Zhang's hand holding the pen paused slightly, and looked at Zhuang Jia, "So, you came to the conclusion that you can protect yourself by staying away from them?"

"No, what you're talking about is more like escaping." Zhuang Jia shook her head lightly, "I think, in fact, I also have ambitions, and I also have what I want. When a relationship can't give me what I want, the relationship will fail. would be hurt..."

There was a faint noise and commotion outside the door.

Doctor Zhang apologized and interrupted Zhuang Jia: "Sorry, I'm sorry."

He opened the door and went out. Zhuang Jia ignored him and continued on her own: "My first love was when I was 15 years old. Others said that the first love is unforgettable, but I don't have much memory. I only remember when he transferred to another school. I cried for a while, and then slowly forgot...

The second time I fell in love, I fell in love with a senior in the senior class, and took it home to play at the birthday party. After seeing my mother, his eyes stopped rolling immediately, and then he broke up with me, saying that he prefers attractive girls like my mother. Strong woman, I really saw a ghost..."

The noise outside the door became louder, mixed with men's roars and women's cries——

"It's this guy, right?!... You're really good, what did you say to see a psychiatrist, and you saw the bed?! How long have you two been dating?!... Tell me!!!"

Zhuang Jia seemed to have never heard of it, and continued to talk to herself: "There is a third time...the third time, someone finally likes me, he said that the way I frown when I draw the design draft is cute, but it turns out it is all a lie human.

Compared with the friends around me, I am really mediocre except I dress up a bit. Zizi is not only smart, but also independent and self-reliant, and can solve any problems that come to her. Zhi Nuan is versatile, she looks silent, but in fact she has more positive ideas than anyone else. As for me... I'm not smart, I'm unstable, and I'm squeamish and lazy. The most frequently heard evaluation is lively and cute. The word lively and cute is actually the same as ordinary and featureless, right?

Oh, I have a talent for design... but compared with my mother, this talent has become a matter of course, not worth mentioning.

Doctor Zhang, I really hope that someone can like me, even if I am so ordinary and so bad, I also hope that person can like me wholeheartedly, and only put me on the top of my heart, the only one, not others substitutes, or fill the emotional void. "

No one responded to her.

The noise outside the door continued.

Zhuang Jia got up and went out, and saw Dr. Zhang and Ms. Ma huddled in the corner, and a strange man was beating and smashing furiously.

Regardless of whether Dr. Zhang could hear her, she stood there and said calmly, "I came here today to say this, mainly to tell you that my illness is probably cured, and I won't come back again in the future."