Chapter 1481 The Cat on the Side of the Road

Tangtang carried the Begonia flowers to the cemetery.

She didn't have any money with her, and the taxi driver saw that she was dumbfounded and came to the cemetery early in the morning. He suspected that he had encountered a delirious lunatic, so he thought he was unlucky and didn't bother her much.

Tangtang found Mu Zening's tombstone, turned over the bricks, and found that the dagger he had hidden underneath was missing.

She knelt and sat in front of the tomb blankly, full of confusion.

That dagger was very important to her.

Not only is it a magic weapon that can restrain her, but it is also the evidence of her existence in the world.

The dagger melted into her bones.

If one day, she disappears like green smoke, that dagger is the only thing that can prove her existence.

A sense of existence is a good thing, it allows us to be recognized, valued, and psychologically satisfied and happy.

Some people publish books and innovate products in professional fields, making the world feel their existence.

Some people leave handwriting of their visit in tourist attractions, which is also a childish expression of seeking a sense of existence.

And our tireless posting status, photos, and videos are also subconsciously seeking responses from the outside world. Those responses make us feel our own existence and the reality that is different from nothingness.

What if you can't feel your own existence?

...Probably, it will be boundless loneliness, like being in a cold and desolate place.

Tangtang leaned against Mu Zening's tombstone, feeling cold and hard. That warm embrace is now only a fantasy.

To her, Mu Zening was always different.

Because Mu Zening only had her.

There are always many people in everyone's life, if one is missing, there are others to make up for.

But during those wandering days, she and Mu Zening depended on each other for life, each other was unique and irreplaceable.

Of course, she was still wrong in the end, even though they were so intimate, he still chose to save Muzi and abandoned her.

She looked up at the sky, it was dazzling white, so far away, so big, she felt more and more at a loss.

Has been raised by others, never lived alone.

"Mu Zening, I miss you so much..." She whispered, and slowly closed her eyes next to the tombstone.

I miss him teaching her to write by hand; I miss him cooking for her according to the recipe; I miss his low voice reading bedtime stories...

Maybe he wasn't that kind to her actually, but what to do? When she was vulnerable, she could only rummage and rummage through these memories, pick out the good ones, and warm herself.

...

Tangtang slept in front of the tomb for a while, but when she woke up her hands and feet were numb from the cold.

She barely stood up, said "goodbye" to Mu Zening's tombstone, picked up the flowerpot, and staggered out.

I don't know where to go, anyway, I just walk along the road, I go wherever I go, and it's all the same wherever I go.

She walked for a long time.

From the remote cemetery, I walked all the way to the urban area, and I couldn't walk anymore, so I sat on the waiting chair at the bus station to rest.

There was an old cardboard box not far away, and there was a cat meowing in the cardboard box, and the sound seemed small and weak in the street where cars were passing by.

It seems that when it is time to leave work and school, the passing vehicles gradually become denser, some people get on, some get off, and people come and go.

Tangtang rested her chin and looked at the cardboard box, wondering if someone would take those cats away.

The two female students got off the bus and stopped when they passed the cardboard boxes: "Ah, so cute..."

I picked up one and stroked it, it was fluffy, and I couldn't put it down.

"Can your parents let you have a cat?"

"Probably not, my mother thinks that small animals lose their hair."

The female student put the kitten back into the cardboard box and sighed, "Oh, I really can't bear it."

Then the two left.

After a while, a young couple passed by.

The girl said: "Who threw this cat, it's so pitiful."

The boy pulled his girlfriend forward: "Don't worry about it, it's so dirty, maybe there is an infectious disease."

The two also left.