Chapter 692 Liang Susu's Story (Part 2)

Just wanted to be seen, that's all.

What the teenage Liang Susu wants most is her own "sense of presence".

She looked at the teacher and her classmates, and felt that they were running side by side in front of them, talking and laughing, and the drops of sweat they shed shone in the bright sunshine, while she was left behind and ran with all her might. Running, reaching out, all the energy is used up just to keep up.

And even if she felt so uncomfortable, she still had to squeeze out a little more of her mind, which was about to be exhausted to the critical point. She was always worried that she would be completely thrown away at some moment, and then fall down on the track in embarrassment, just like that. Watching everyone else laughing and running further and further away.

Stop, take me, look at me.

Liang Susu even envied those classmates who would be dragged to the bathroom and bullied because someone paid attention to them and knew them - their names would be remembered.

Ridiculous, right?

Liang Susu also felt that she was ridiculous and pitiful.

Yes, how ordinary is she? Even for malicious school bullies, others didn't bother to find her as a target.

why? Am I really so ordinary that I can’t even get any pleasure from being bullied?

Totally transparent.

Liang Susu lowered her head in silence and closed her eyes.

She has a small ambition and she wants to be seen.

The hair tie taught Liang Susu a lesson, letting her know that when chasing fashion, she must rush early, the sooner the better, so that she can smoothly have the opportunity to talk to everyone.

Such an opportunity came quickly.

Recently, there is a game that has become popular in the class. It is mainly about battles and requires very high mobile phone configurations. Whether it is between classes or going to and from school, you can hear the students talking about it, talking about face shaping, skills, and ranks. , seems to have countless topics.

Liang Susu had a big fight with her father and forced herself to get a new mobile phone.

She began to study the game day and night, playing battles and improving scores like crazy. I don't know if it's because of her natural talent, but she's really good at gaming. She quickly became proficient in the game in a short period of time and became an "advanced player" in the general sense.

No, it’s not the highest!

Liang Susu holds back her energy and must reach the strongest rank before promoting it to her classmates. She wants everyone to be surprised and say "Wow"!

"——You must be sick. Your ultimate move doesn't have any control skills, so you're going to beat the shit out of me!

"Idiot! Can't you move?

"Why are you such a loser? Can you, this loser, please stop playing random matches and holding me back?"

In a sense, the game gave Liang Susu a way to vent, allowing her to pour out the dirty words she had heard from her father but did not dare to say in front of others;

The game has exacerbated her anxiety to a certain extent, because it does not have any rank protection. If you want to reach the top, you can only rely on your strength to fight your way up. This process naturally has wins and losses. When you are unlucky and in poor condition, You can even lose more than ten games in a row, and your points will fall like water, making your heart bleed.

Because of her addiction to games, Liang Susu's already mediocre grades continued to decline.

But she achieved a small amount of success. She struck up a conversation with the most popular girls in the class, and then discovered that for them, rank was not the most important thing. They preferred the face-pinching function in the game. and various skins.

Those all cost money, a lot of money, and even more if they are limited edition products.

Liang Susu gritted her teeth and started to make money in the game.

She worked hard to catch up with the trend of the army, but the game updated so fast, and everyone's topics changed quickly. She had to swipe her father's credit card secretly and intermittently, and the speed of krypton gold could not keep up with the changes in fashion trends.

In the end, Liang Susu failed again. She was punched one after another by her father in the cramped and old rental house. She watched helplessly as the man took away her cell phone. No matter how much she cried and begged him not to take it, her father did not let go. .

"I fucking work from dawn to dusk to make money just so you can study hard! What are you doing!"

Her father yelled at her, his voice hoarse from the exertion.

"You make money! You make money every day! You never even look at me!"

Liang Susu screamed, cried, and collapsed.

"Liu Meng's father taught her math problems! Zhou Qiqi's father hired an external oral coach for her! What can you do! You just know how to let me study! If you don't do well in the exam, you know how to scold me!"

Snapped!

Liang Susu was beaten so hard that she fell to the ground.

"Fuck you...fuck you..."

The father was so angry that the flesh on his face was trembling, "You can't learn it yourself! Come up with some excuses! Let me learn it!"

Liang Susu gritted her teeth and her face was covered with tears. After the tears in her eyes, she looked at him madly cursing, with extreme hatred in her eyes.

The man was cursing and the alarm clock on his cell phone rang. He grabbed the phone and walked out with his work clothes.

Shivering, Liang Susu wiped away her tears and ran out of the house without even looking at her schoolbag.

Now all she could do was hang out.

Liang Susu was walking on the roadside, and the passers-by rarely focused on her, which showed how inconspicuous she was.

She started squatting at the intersection like an unlearned gangster, sometimes bullying blind beggars on the roadside as a prank, and sometimes picking up lighters and half packs of cigarettes that others accidentally dropped on the ground to smoke.

There is nothing worth mentioning in particular. If it must be said, it was probably that Liang Susu helped a young man who almost drank to death on the street one night. That was the only time she was looked up at by someone, although the man was still It's drunk and hazy.

Liang Susu couldn't help but tug at the hem of her school uniform, and stuffed the cigarette deeper into her butt pocket.

She continued to wander. Her father was out every day and rarely came home. Haha, with his kind of virtue, he might not even know that he was abducted or hacked to death.

Liang Susu sneered in her heart.

One night, she picked up a cup of unopened milk tea that no one else wanted and drank it. After drinking it, she felt a little bad. Since there were no public toilets nearby, she simply ran into a KTV not far away.

That KTV was decent and grand. Normally, Liang Susu wouldn't dare to go in. But after spending too many days wandering around, she had long since given up on herself, thinking that no one would notice people like me, and she was just going to the toilet. , and rushed in out of desperation.

As expected, no one paid attention to her, and Liang Susu felt both happy and depressed at the same time.

As if she was deliberately mocking herself, she would often wander around this area later on, standing across the street and watching the group of teasing men and women sneer with disdain or envy.

But in school, Liang Susu is still the ordinary little transparent student.

The class placement test was coming soon, and the class teacher proposed a support plan for good students to help poor students. Liang Susu, whose score fell to the bottom of the class, was assigned to the same group as the study committee members and others.

This should have been a good opportunity to strike up a conversation.

After the group class, there is a physical education class. This is a high-end private middle school, so everyone has to change into special sportswear first.

Liang Susu was menstruating and walked to the bathroom holding her stomach. Li Tao, a study committee member in the same group as her, noticed something strange about her and followed her.

Liang Susu was embarrassed to face her, so she went to draw public toilet paper, folded them into a thick pile, then took a little from each side and folded it inward.

"What are you doing?" Li Tao asked.

"ah?"

Liang Susu looked over awkwardly, "I, I, change the paper...my aunt..."

"Ah? When you come, aunt will just put toilet paper on it?"

Li Tao looked surprised and immediately touched her pocket and found a white square-shaped object and handed it to her, "You can use this!"

"what is this?"

Liang Susu asked softly.

"Just, sanitary napkins?"

Li Tao looked over with an incredulous look, and manually opened the sanitary napkin, "Just put it underneath, then wrap the two pieces around and stick them together..."

After giving the demonstration to Liang Susu, who looked confused and sluggish, she asked casually and doubtfully: "Didn't your mother teach you?"

Liang Susu's heart was stung for a moment.

"As long as you have a mother!"

She suddenly shouted hysterically at Li Tao, "Your mother is not a good person! She doesn't even know that your father's crotch is rotten outside!"

Li Tao was stunned: "What? What are you talking about?"

"Your dad is looking for a girl at KTV!"

Liang Susu continued to shout, "I remember his face when he drove to pick you up from school! I saw with my own eyes that he walked out of the golden years with a woman! The woman even stuffed a note into his pocket!"

"impossible!"

Li Tao's expression changed instantly, "You, you lied!"

"I've been to the toilet there! I heard that woman talking to a group of women about renting a house and having an abortion! They are all selling it! Your dad is just looking for J outside! He is a bad crotch!"

Liang Susu stamped her feet and shouted.

"you're lying!!"

Li Tao ran away crying.

Liang Susu looked at her hastily escaping back, and felt a twisted sense of pleasure in her heart.

Look, you are so beautiful, you study so well, and your family is so harmonious and happy. Isn’t your dad cheating on a young lady outside?

You're not any happier than me!

She had a ferocious smile on her face.

…

Snapped! Boom!

Liang Susu fell into the corner, and with another "pop", her father threw the dazzling report card in her face.

"How the hell did I give birth to such a loser like you!" He yelled angrily.

"How powerful you are! You are also a waste! How strong can a waste child be!"

Liang Susu no longer passively accepted scolding, she scolded her back harshly.

"You fucking-"

Her father grabbed her by the collar, slapped her and kicked her. The clanging sound was mixed with the muffled sound of his fists and feet landing on her flesh. The sound alone could make people imagine how intense the pain was.

"You look just like your mother! You failed in exams like this! You can't find a good job if you can't graduate! What man would be happy to have you!"

The man kept cursing, "If you weren't my biological child, no one would care to look at you!"

Liang Susu's face, which was still filled with anger and unyieldingness, suddenly trembled.

"You...you can't..."

she said with a trembling voice.

"I really wish I had never given birth to you!" The man continued to scold, repeating "I am your father" and "You are my biological child". Even if he stopped moving, his mouth did not stop. I don't know what he wanted to express. , what’s the point.

Under Liang Susu's messy bangs, her eyes are getting darker and darker.

The next day, she arrived at the school early, walked into the teaching building, and then walked all the way up to the empty rooftop.

At that time, the sky was just dawning, and the gray-white mist was filling the air, like a weird translucent glue block, which was suffocating for no reason.

Liang Susu fell to the ground distraught, looking in a daze.

She stared at the ground, as if she wanted to count every brick seam, and then looked up at the sky, as if she wanted to see something in line with her expectations from the chaotic clouds.

Liang Susu stayed here for a long time, until she heard the faint sound of drums, the whistle of the physical education teacher, and the noisy laughter of the students.

Ah, two classes have passed, and it's almost noon.

She thought blankly, and suddenly started to giggle without any warning.

Sure enough... Sure enough.

People like me, even if they disappear, no one will find them, let alone come to find them.

Why do I have to live?

Me.

Liang Susu laughed and laughed, and suddenly choked.

She felt that her eyes were vomiting, and a lot of vomit gushed out, some of which wet her face, and some hit the concrete floor.

Look at me.

Look-look-me-ah-!

Liang Susu knelt and raised her head, roaring silently like a monster.

One after another.

Silence, but heartbreaking.

"Hahahaha, hahahahahaha..."

She fell down, lying on the ground crying and laughing.

The bruises under the school uniform were aching.

On the contrary, her heart and blood vessels had become numb.

"Hahahahaha——cough!——hahahaha——"

Liang Susu choked with laughter, like a sloppy lunatic.

She staggered forward and stood on the edge.

Melodious light music floated in the air of the school, and the lunch break bell rang.

Liang Susu jumped down in the beautiful music and laughter.

"I don't know how many people will remember me now..."

The last thought flashed through her mind, and she smiled sweetly and morbidly.