Chapter 493 What Is “Heart”?

"Heart? What a mess."

Sitting in front of the hospital bed indifferently, Bronya took small breaths and stared at the regular ups and downs on the electrocardiogram. She finally breathed a sigh of relief, but deep fatigue soon surged into her heart. .

"Don't you understand? In fact, there is no need to force it. The reason why I say this is because of my understanding of Mikael. Your understanding of Mikael cannot be as deep as mine, so of course you cannot understand what I want to express. mean."

"You - you know this yourself, why do you tell Bronya this? Does this really make sense?"

Bronya used her thumb to push open the knotted eyebrows, but the moment she raised her thumb, her brows frowned again.

Mei was sitting directly opposite her, with Xi'er lying on the hospital bed separating them. If she had a choice, Bronya didn't want to share the time to visit Xi'er with this guy. But it is a pity that she, a B-level Valkyrie, does not have the right to refuse the other party as a "special scientist", let alone such a small thing.

That's right, just entering the ward to take a look at Xi'er didn't seem to be that important. Perhaps in the hearts of some people who are unaware of this, Seele has extraordinary weight, but to Hyperion at this time, Seele is just an ordinary B-level Valkyrie. As for the whole world...that smile is no different from the floating dust in the sun.

“Do people really think in advance when they speak?”

Mei raised a finger, her expression not serious, but it always gave people the illusion that she "had to listen".

"From an absolutely rational perspective, human beings always hope that every word they say, just like everything they do, has been fully thought through and made. But this phenomenon itself reflects that, Only very few people, under very few circumstances, have the opportunity and willingness to think fully before speaking. So you don’t always need to think that my words mean something. Is there a possibility that I just have pure feelings. And hair?"

Are you inspired? Bronya rolled her eyes. Maybe Mei was right, she was over-interpreting it, but how much difference was there?

"Ah... As for what you mean by meaning. Bronya, do you also think that everything a person does must have a corresponding meaning? What is meaning? Existentialists, nihilists, absurdists... almost Everyone agrees that there is no meaning in this world or in our lives. Things you do purely for your own happiness are often considered "meaningless" even in traditional concepts. But if suffering is considered meaningful, then shouldn't people be born to suffer? So, don't stop suffering? Asking the question, 'Does this make sense?'

Bronya sighed silently. She really didn't want to face the woman in front of her. It was not just a matter of caution and unfamiliarity. After the earlier unfamiliarity period, she also understood that since Theresa and the two anti-entropy The doctors all chose to trust this woman, so she didn't have to be so aggressive.

It's just... chatting with this woman is really... uncomfortable.

She would always use some wild metaphors, say things that seemed to have nothing to do with the topic, go in a big circle and then bring the topic back to the original point, or like just now, say a long series of words in one breath that were almost tongue twisters.

Coupled with the seemingly absent scrutiny, Bronya didn't know whether this woman named "Mei" was clear or not, and how stressful it was to talk to her.

Bronya fixed her eyes on Xi'er's pale sleeping face. After a few seconds, she raised her head again as if feeling something. She saw Mei looking at the girl on the hospital bed with rare gentle eyes.

Almost instantly, she recalled the illusion she had encountered in the Oceania branch. What's more, Mei admitted unabashedly just now that she did know a "Xie'er" in the past. Judging from her reaction, coupled with the reactions of Mikael and Mebius in the illusion, it is obvious that the two look very different.

"Actually, you don't have to worry too much about this girl."

The silence lasted for about a few minutes, and Mei spoke again, but this time what came out of her mouth was finally a topic that Bronya was interested in.

"What's the meaning?"

"you guess?"

Mei blinked, while Bronya covered her forehead weakly.

Sure enough, you shouldn't have any expectations for her.

I don't know whether to say that birds of a feather flock together, people flock together, or something else. Mei, like Mikael, seems to like to use words to arouse a person's interest, and then the words suddenly stop.

Could this behavior of the Riddler bring some kind of pleasure?

Bronya only knew that as the other party in the conversation, she... really hated such behavior.

If something shouldn't have been said in the first place, just don't say it. If one thing can be said, there is no need to cover it up.

Why do you always like to half-speak when you talk? Is it just to let the other party of the conversation guess? But what's the point?

Well, May seems to have just said, stop asking the question "Does this kind of thing make sense?"

Bronya shook her head quickly, letting herself forget these worries for the time being, because she had more important things to face soon, and she couldn't let her mind be disturbed by a few inexplicable words from an inexplicable person.

The two silver drill bits hanging by her ears swayed like small hammers on a rattle. If Xier was still awake, she would definitely be smiling with her azure eyes staring at the dexterous rotation of her "turbine".

The girl didn't know why she had such "shameful" thoughts in her heart, but... whatever.

She held Xi'er's hand and silently felt the vague warmth in the other's palm. Although the regularly beating electrocardiogram had proved to her the fact that Xi'er was still "alive", the electrocardiogram was cold after all and could be heard from time to time. After all, the "didi" sound is harsh. Only when skin touches each other and feels the temperature of another person can we truly feel what "living" is like.

"not good……"

When she came back to her senses, Bronya found that her heart was in chaos.

No matter whether he opens his eyes or closes them, even if he keeps reminding himself not to think randomly, his thoughts are still driven by Mei's words and run wildly.

What exactly does the so-called heart mean? Why can you defeat Mikael with your heart, and why can you defeat Mikael only with your heart?

What is Xi'er's current state? How can we wake her up? What kind of "no need to worry" method does Mei mean?

They were all questions that she couldn't understand at all, and it was impossible for her to understand them. The person who asked these questions was crossing his legs at this time, leaning his whole body weight on the back of the chair, calmly and with a trace of He looked at her playfully.

"Yeah, he seems to be thinking carefully about what I said. What a good boy."

Bronya's eyelids twitched, and she had a strong urge to hit someone.

There are two types of people she hates the most. The first one is the Riddler, needless to say (although it only took a few minutes to decide).

The second type is someone who treats her like a child at all times and talks condescendingly like a person who has experienced her.

At this moment, the woman named Mei in front of her took up both points.

Strangely enough, the feeling Mei gave to Bronya just now seemed to be able to easily see through her thoughts. In this case, Bronya felt that she should also be able to see her current irritable mood.

But why does she keep inciting her emotions like this?

"Hehehe..."

Mei, who was across the bed, suddenly covered her mouth and chuckled.

"why are you laughing!"

Bronya felt that her patience was reaching its limit.

"I just think that there is indeed some kind of mysterious connection between you and him... Both of them like to suppress their emotions, euphemistically speaking, they are afraid that overly active emotions will affect their judgment in battle, but this Isn't it a kind of escape? It seems that as long as the whole world has nothing to do with me, then no matter what I lose, it will be a kind of escape. You won't hurt yourself. But is this really the case? People who care will not become people who don't care just because they think they don't care. The same goes for love. You won’t get it, you will only realize after losing it that you have lived such a failed life.”

Bronya pursed her lips twice and clenched Xier's palm with both hands.

She took a sharp breath with a trembling voice and slowly closed her eyes. She instinctively wanted to refute Mei's statement, but what emerged from her dark consciousness was Xi'er's smile.

And that "Sister Bronya".

"..."

Thinking about it carefully, during the time in Changkong City, she was not as indifferent as she is now. When did the mental state of returning to Siberia begin...

Sure enough, it started from the day when Xi'er also became the Valkyrie...

Bronya actually didn't remember the specific time. With human memory mode, it was difficult to grasp a turning point in her emotions. In other words, most transitions in this world do not have a clear "node". Changes always happen quietly. When a person truly notices this, it is always too late. So I looked back at the way I came from with my subjective impressions, and marked some landmark events that may have been the cause of this change. That was probably it.

And what Bronya did was strictly speaking.

It's just that she is more sensitive than ordinary people, and she can find the place where the flag should be planted more quickly and accurately. Although it doesn't matter whether the facts changed from here.

So, it really started from that day...

Because Xi'er has also become a Valkyrie, because Xi'er has changed from a person she can see after each mission to a person who needs to perform tasks with her, because Xi'er has changed from a person being protected to a protector. Others, therefore, may be sacrificed in front of her at any time.

Yes, Mei is right.

She was indeed escaping...especially now, after something happened to Xi'er.

"Bronya, if something goes wrong in the next battle, Xi'er will die."

Mei's words came to Bronya's ears lightly. She was stunned for a moment at first. After reacting, her eyes widened almost instantly. She jumped up from the bed and leaned forward over the bed. If she had Mei's height, , probably their heads were about to collide intimately.

"What are you talking about!?"

After a second, she opened her lips and continued to ask:

"Didn't you just say that Xier doesn't need to worry too much!!"

Mei Laoshen crossed his arms across his chest comfortably, his purple eyes did not waver, he just looked at Bronya silently through the thin lenses.

The little bit of "deterrence" that Bronya thought she had was nothing in front of her. After all, the only individuals she had ever needed to face seriously were the Herrschers. To her, such an immature young Valkyrie was indeed It’s something that doesn’t require much effort to deal with. Although this Valkyrie has an extremely heavy weight for her next plan...or for the entire "plot", that is also the future, not the present. Unlike people like them who have already reached the destination, girls still have a long way to go and a long way to go.

"Everything must be decided based on the next plan. If the plan goes well, then not only will your Xi'er not be harmed, but she will also gain enough power to protect herself in this world and make you no longer worry about her so much. But if the plan fails to unfold as planned... then the only path waiting for her is loneliness and death. "

"What on earth do you mean!"

Bronya stood up straight and pressed her heart hard with her palms in an attempt to calm herself down.

This did work, and her voice became calmer, calmer...or rather colder.

"It's very simple."

Mei spread her hands, not knowing whether this action was showing Bronya that she had no ill intentions, or whether it was just out of some habit.

"I read your mission report. It's obvious that what you were in at that time was not an 'illusion', but a world bubble in the quantum sea. The specific explanation is quite complicated, so you can understand the quantum sea as The other world corresponding to the original world was fine. When the world bubble collapsed, you and Raiden Mei left successfully, but only Raiden Meiyi left. Xi'er was drawn outside the world bubble, which is the 'sea', so in my opinion, Xi'er's problem is obvious - because the other party only pulled your spirit, not the whole body, into the quantum sea. Therefore, it was only Xi'er's consciousness that was swept into the sea, which caused the separation of her consciousness and body. In this case, it was impossible for her to wake up. "

"Like a vegetative state?"

"No, there is no analogy between the two. Many vegetative people will retain a certain amount of consciousness, which is the so-called 'minimum state of consciousness'. The original blueprint for the common story in human narratives in which persistent companionship finally awakens a vegetative person is probably A case in a state of minimal consciousness, and Xier’s current problem is about the body and soul. Complete separation is far more dangerous than a vegetative state - if it is a vegetative state with complete loss of consciousness, then there is no possibility of recovery from the beginning. However, Xier is just the opposite. Theoretically, the possibility of success is higher than that of a tiny consciousness. However, once it fails, the vegetative state will continue to linger, and the only thing waiting for Xi'er is death. "

Mei stood up slowly and lifted the blue and white striped sheets in front of Bronya. She unbuttoned Xi'er's hospital gown again. Just as Bronya was about to ask her why she did this, she saw the black bruises under the stigmata on Xi'er's chest.

"What's this?"

"This is the consequence of the soul being separated from the body for a long time. The body will gradually become necrotic, and the same goes for the soul. Just like after a flower is picked, both the buds and the rhizome will only wither. Judging from the current situation, This body can only support it for another month at most. In fact, the rate of necrosis of the body will become faster and faster. This is already a very optimistic estimate. "

Bronya's body fell backwards, falling back into her seat.

Her hands were helpless trying to find the armrests of the chair, but this stool only had a backrest. Her arms dangled twice, and finally grabbed the edge of the chair.

"So...what should Bronya do?"

After two or three seconds, she spoke directly.

"It's very simple. Entering the quantum sea, finding Xi'er's soul, and taking her soul back to the original world is almost the only way. But the problem I just said is that this body can only support one month. You only have this opportunity, so I missed it..."

"That's it?"

Mei was not annoyed when Bronya interrupted her speech, but instead smiled.

"Of course it's not that simple if you look at it carefully, but that's generally it."

"Bronya understands."

"Even if you immediately become enemies with Cocolia, who once took you in, does it not matter?"

"Bronya just wants to...it doesn't matter."

"very good……"

Mei leaned over without warning, and lightly tapped Bronya's forehead with her index finger.

"Now you understand, what is the so-called 'heart'." (End of Chapter)