Chapter 632 Kiana, Kill Me

"Envy...envy?"

The question was not surprise, but Kiana did not expect that Sirin, who had always been tough-tongued, would say such things at such a time.

It’s not that Kiana doesn’t understand Sirin’s envy, on the contrary, precisely because she is also Sirin in a sense. Although she has not witnessed everything about Sirin from the perspective of an “eyewitness”, she can still be called one. The person who knows [Xilin] best in the world, so she can better understand the weight of the fluttering word [envy].

"Are you... trying to cheer me up with these words?"

"Do you think I have such thoughts to comfort you? Don't be stupid, it's just a sigh."

Xilin said, but for some reason she raised her head.

Kiana's life has only been ten years so far. It is neither warm and ordinary nor smooth. Even at this moment, she is trapped in mental pain and existential crisis and cannot escape.

However, compared to Xilin's life, even the truly stable, ordinary and happy days in these ten years were only two years, and even including the time of wandering around and having fun with her smelly father, it was less than five years. . However, this is all that Xilin could hope for but could not achieve in the end.

The cold fingers slowly and gently slid up and down the cheek, just like the heart in that thin body that kept beating no matter what.

After a while, Xilin said:

"I just...I just...think the people you met are really nice."

"..."

"You have met Siegfried and the real Kiana since you were born. Although you had no fate with them before that, they were willing to risk their lives to help you. Siegfried even gave himself My daughter’s name is given to you...

"Later, when you arrived in Changkong City, you met Leiden Meiyi again. That little girl looked weak and weak, and she was not confident in what she did. She seemed to need your support and encouragement most of the time, but once you She is more anxious about anything than anyone else. She can give everything for you. As long as she gives the three words "for you", she can throw her life into the scale as a bargaining chip... I can't describe this feeling, because that It's beyond my knowledge.

"And Theresa. Although her initial concern for you was all because of Cecilia and Siegfried, and because you were her niece, during those two years at St. Freya, I saw how much she cared about you. The concern of the other Valkyries has also been seen. Even after knowing that you are not the real Kiana, but just a container specially created for the Second Herrscher who accidentally gave birth to self-awareness, she is still willing to do it for you. You risked everything to fight, forced yourself to do things you were not good at, and never denied your identity as [Kiana]... Oh, you have seen it, I have also met Delly. Sha, she told me... [It's okay, the nightmare is over, I will take good care of you], it would have been great if I had believed her at that time... Unfortunately, at that time, I could no longer trust anyone.

"And Himeko... If Siegfried and his daughter decided to save you because of a sudden surge of passion, and Mei wanted to save you because of those complicated emotions, Bronya and Siel are good to you. Because of friendship, Teresa cares about you because of the family affection that was wrongly conveyed at the beginning, so why does Jizi want to save you even if she risks her own life? We are strangers to each other. I even thought she hated you for a while because you always slept when she was in class. After being caught by Teresa eating late-night snacks, you would find out the wine she had hidden in the dormitory to make you guilty. , and always calls her aunt... If it were me, I would have wiped your neck a long time ago. I can only say that humans are complicated creatures that I can’t understand at all.”

Xilin's fingers stopped in the middle of her cheek, and the trembling of her fingertips was more clearly captured by Kiana.

Xilin fell into silence at this moment. Listening to her rambling words, Kiana only felt flustered, but she wanted to know what Xilin was thinking at this moment.

It was just a thought. Kiana did not expect that the scenery in front of her started to change. The familiar and unfamiliar theater around her began to peel off like wall paint, and then quickly turned into a pure white world. After that, the color was filled again. superior.

In this way, the scene is reversed.

"here it is……"

Compared to the dim theater, the fluorescent lights here are extremely dazzling, and the smooth metal on the wall reflects the light better, but for some reason, the darkness in the four corners of the lights piles up, making the place seem more depressing and heavy.

Tower of Babel.

Kiana recognized this place immediately.

It's not the sky-reaching tower that the Tenth Herrscher brought despair to, but the experimental base that humans once set up for the beautiful vision of "defeating Honkai".

"Come on, give me your hand and come out quickly."

"That's... aunt?"

Kiana soon saw a familiar figure.

The short Theresa ran in the cold corridor, quickly opening the doors of one room after another. Every time she opened one, her face became darker. There were hundreds of rooms on the first floor, but she only found a dozen or so. For children who can move around on their own, there are even corpses piled up in the room with the "dormitory" sign that they haven't had time to pull out. The living people live with their companions like this. When the door is opened, the stench is almost overwhelming. To break people down.

That's why Theresa had to work hard to smile, and only that kind of smile would make everyone feel at ease.

"Don't worry, you are all safe. You hide here first. I will send you away in a few days."

She smiled and held the shoulders of a brown-haired girl, but the latter trembled and pushed her away.

Why can I see so clearly... Kiana was distracted and found that she was standing behind the brown-haired girl.

Looking down, she saw the long purple hair hanging on the metallic floor.

"It's Xilin's memory again..."

"Wait, Theresa! You are violating the rules! The experimental subjects must be sent back to the headquarters - they have all been injected with Honkai energy. We can't let these experimental subjects go. It's too dangerous!"

The aunt who followed Theresa, who looked like a subordinate and a friend, objected in a low voice. Although she lowered her voice, it was easy for the girls to hear it in such a quiet environment.

Theresa lowered her head a little, then smiled and raised her neck:

"You know St. Freya Academy. Not long ago, I applied to the bishop for an artificial island in the Far East, where I will quietly take in girls who are used as experimental subjects, let them learn, and let them learn to control the power in their bodies. One day, they can return to normal life, or... become Valkyries as good as you."

The Valkyrie had nothing to say, and Theresa slowly turned her head, looked at the girls who were afraid of her, and said softly:

"Please believe me, come with me! It's okay, the nightmare is over, I will take good care of you!"

"You are really good at talking..."

Kiana felt her lips move, and a series of imperceptible breaths came out.

"This is... Xilin back then, just like that..."

"That's right, back then I just took Theresa's words as a lie to coax a child. I don't believe there is any kindness in this world without reason, but that's normal, right? Every interaction between humans is a desire for the other party to exchange with themselves on an equal basis, and even greedy people will ask for far more than they give. Once, my mother and I fell to that point because we believed in someone's kindness, and it was reasonable to have that kind of thought. Of course, now I admit that there are indeed some people in this world who are as stupid as you, who can do something without seeking rewards, or in other words, the rewards they ask for are not It is not for yourself, but for the world or the people they help. "

"So you..."

The time in the memory stopped at this moment, so Xilin could remain silent and silent without restraint, until after a long time, she spoke with some yearning:

"You said, if I believed Theresa at that time, what would the future be like?"

Xilin snorted and laughed, "At least one thing is certain, in that case, there would be no you, Kiana."

"..."

The world of memory began to piece together and reorganize, the cold and dark corridor of the Tower of Babylon gradually faded, and what appeared in the field of vision was the classroom that Kiana was very familiar with, the classroom of St. Freya Academy.

"Do——"

A piece of chalk fell on the table, forcing the girl to lift her shaky head and her uncontrollable drooping eyelids.

"Uh... why do you sleep in class too?"

Kiana paused the video, looked at Ji Zi with her eyebrows raised on the podium, and then looked at the purple long hair scattered on the desk, and felt that she had something to complain about.

But Xilin turned the tables:

"Tsk, who told you to sleep in every class? Whenever I think of studying, my mind is full of you sleeping in class."

"I will listen carefully sometimes, okay!"

"Nonsense, you are standing at the podium with your desk on your head, if you don't listen carefully, who will?"

"Why is Ji Zi the teacher? In 2000, Ji Zi hadn't gone to college yet?"

"Are you stupid? Do you think I know any other teachers besides your group of guys from Saint Freya?"

"Uh... are you really not intentional?"

"Are you sick? You are so annoying!"

But after just two sentences, Xilin returned to the angry puffer mode, But when the time in the world of consciousness started to flow again, the [story] that followed the development of her consciousness was followed by Ji Zi's angry voice the next moment:

"Xilin! How many times have you slept in class? You must have played games again after the lights were turned off at night... Bella, what are you laughing at? I guessed that you were playing games with Xilin. Wait for me when you go back tonight. I will go to your two rooms to check carefully! Xilin, the old rules, stand here with your desk on your head!"

"Ah, the teacher is so annoying!" - In the past, Kiana would always complain like this, but at this moment, looking at Ji Zi who was exactly the same as in her memory, listening to the exact scolding, she said nothing.

Like her, Xilin did not raise any questions, but just imagined herself standing on the edge of the podium obediently and submissively with her desk on her head.

Then, Ji Zi did not continue to write on the blackboard in the middle of the podium, but came to the side of the blackboard close to Xilin, and re-drew the three-view drawing of the parts originally drawn in the middle of the blackboard with chalk, and then deliberately looked at Xilin, repeating what she had said earlier:

"The structure of this device is to ensure that when you are performing missions, if you encounter the Honkai energy transmission device or pipeline damage in the Valkyrie armor, or the Honkai energy stored beyond the threshold, which threatens your life safety, you can quickly deal with it. For armor disassembly, due to the special structure of the Valkyrie armor, only quick-release steel wires can be used. Technology, you have to reassemble it after every disassembly. Pay special attention to here, here and here when assembling. If the assembly is not in place, the armor will not fit properly, or the quick release will not be activated when necessary - I don't care about anything else. , this is related to your lives, even if you sleep, you still have to dream about this, do you understand, Siren! "

Xilin nodded obediently and silently. The table above her head was about to fall due to the unstable center of gravity, but she did not use her hands, and she had the invisible power to stabilize the table again.

"Okay, okay, you didn't go to bed first, why are you looking so aggrieved... Sit back, sit back, your head is really hard, I'm afraid the table won't be able to bear it if you hold it for a long time."

The imaginary Jizi suddenly waved her hand generously and drove Xilin away again.

Siren just obeyed Jizi's orders obediently, but Kiana's consciousness had already burst into tears in this imaginary place where "Himeko" could not see.

For Siren, these are another possible future in her imagination, but for Kiana, this is the past that she has experienced firsthand.

If Sirin hadn't reappeared in the conscious world again, she would have almost forgotten the past.

There was a time when she only thought that Ji Zi was targeting her, but now that she looked at it again, she could only feel full of concern.

Calling her off the podium was not a humiliation, it was just because what was said at that time was life-threatening and she had to listen carefully. Ji Zi even wasted her time and went back to the blackboard where she could see it more clearly, drew a picture, and deliberately explained it to herself. I was afraid that everyone in the class could see it, but she was the only one who foolishly thought that Ji Zi just changed it casually. A blackboard.

"Asche zu Asche, Staub zu Staub. No matter how sad you are now, you can't go back to the past."

"Why are you talking about me in such a enlightened tone! And this is obviously your imagination! Can't you think of something more heartwarming?"

Kiana complained as she wiped her tears with one hand and her nose with the other.

"Is it warm..."

As if hitting some key words, the sadness on Xilin's face became even heavier, and she even forgot to take off the table above her head.

She smiled, her smile full of regret and unwillingness.

"Warmth...I don't know how to imagine it...but since it is the request of [other me], I will give it a try."

So St. Freya's classroom gradually faded away.

They came to another place that Kiana was familiar with - the principal's office.

only……

"Huh? Huh? Why is...Cecilia sitting here, where is Theresa?"

"Are you stupid? St. Freya Academy was originally an idea proposed by Cecilia. But in the end... it was just realized by Theresa. If I had followed Theresa back and finally became a student The director must be Lady Cecilia!”

Siren used the information gap to show off her superiority without mercy, but when she realized that the reason why this did not happen was ultimately because of herself, her tone became lower in an instant. Only when she read Cecilia's name , and then a trace of enthusiasm burst out again.

Time in the conscious world has begun to flow again.

Cecilia was rubbing her neck with her eyes closed. The short hair she had just trimmed made her neck look longer. If you want to ask why she appeared in this image, it might be because in that beautiful dream, Cecilia had a long hair. It must have been such a short hair, not the long hair that she had when she died holding Siren in her arms.

Hearing the noise in front of her, she put down her hands, straightened her head, opened her eyes, and quickly showed a soft smile:

"Huh? Sirin, you're here. Sit down quickly. Jizi recently said that your performance is very good... uh, forget it. It's rare to get along in private, so I won't talk about this!"

She suddenly blinked mysteriously, stood up from the table, leaned forward, waved to Sirin, then deliberately lowered her voice and whispered in a breathy voice:

"I called you here at noon. Actually, I wanted to give you a surprise and give... uh, that idiot a chance! - My dear, come in!"

Cecilia clapped her hands, and under Siren's gaze, the office door behind her was pushed open, and Siegfried wearing sunglasses and Houm brand flower pants walked in with a big smile.

He was holding a plate in his hand, and the plate was covered with a metal lid in a ceremonial manner. The alluring aroma of burnt food was unstoppable, and soon filled the entire room.

Cecilia frowned, waved her hand to pat the approaching scent, and then explained to the expressionless Siren:

"Last time your dad volunteered to cook, the result was too disastrous, but this time he swore that he had been researching for a week and finally made a dish you would like, so I had no choice but to give him a chance - tsk, Isn’t that right, my dear, why do you taste like it’s burnt?”

"Don't worry, my dear wife, I definitely didn't accidentally burn it!"

Siegfried patted his chest and promised, but the increasingly obvious burnt smell became clearer and clearer.

So, Siegfried stopped pretending.

He placed the plate heavily on Cecilia's desk, in front of the mother and daughter, and then opened the lid with an exaggerated poss-

"Dangdang! I spent a week researching a new dish to invent-toast pizza! Fresh toast, put the ingredients and seasonings, and then use the Heavenly Fire Holy Judge to bake it! It's a dish that even a fool can make!"

"Didn't you say... it wasn't burnt?"

Cecilia pointed at the black square of charred matter on the plate, and the corners of her mouth kept twitching.

"That's right! I burned it on purpose! If it wasn't burnt, how would you know you were eating pizza!"

"Oh-it's really creative. But dear, I should have said: You can't use the Heavenly Fire Holy Judge to cook, you remember, right? You must remember it, right?"

"Ah? Did you? You must have heard it wrong, my dear, how could I use the Key of God to cook, hehe..."

"I just recorded it, do you want me to play it for you again?"

"Plop-"

It was like someone knelt down on the built-in keyboard-why was there only sound? Xilin's tears flowed silently.

Because more specific things were completely beyond her cognition, she couldn't even imagine it.

"I lied to you, I didn't record it, but now you admit it, right?"

Cecilia's voice came slowly in the pure white.

The voice was erratic and distant, as if it came from a very far place.

This was the last imagination.

Xilin sighed.

"Xilin?"

It seemed that Kiana was calling her.

But turning around, Kiana was also covering her mouth and crying silently with her, then...

"Xilin!"

Another call, but it was already carrying the anxiety that a mother would only have in that single special situation.

"Xilin! Where have you been!"

Is it an illusion?

It seemed that Cecilia was calling her...

Xilin tore her hair, forcing herself to wake up with the pain.

Impossible, Cecilia is dead.

Everything is just her imagination.

But there is also a real side in this world.

The pure white gradually faded, and the surroundings were still the dark and depressing walls of the theater.

Xilin pinched Kiana's face, and then gently grasped Kiana's hand.

Kiana thought it was just an ordinary handshake. Although Xilin put her five fingers together like an obsessive-compulsive disorder, and bent her palm straight, making a hand knife shape, she didn't care.

But the next moment, Xilin held Kiana's hand, and before the latter could react, she suddenly stabbed it into her heart. (End of this chapter)