Chapter 276 Blood Soaked Clothes

"Liu Li."

Her throat moved slightly, and the girl's name came out slightly from her lips.

Sakakibara stood in front of the door of the love hotel room and saw Amami Kuriuri holding a fruit knife in front of him. There was a look of helplessness in his eyes.

This is also a very likely scenario.

He wasn't too surprised.

"Lejun, I'm sorry."

In front of his eyes, rainwater climbed from the girl's wet school uniform sleeves to the back of her hand, and then slid from the back of her hand to the tip of the knife, until a cold line flowed down the stainless steel surface.

Tianhai Jiuliuli's hand was trembling, and the water droplets dripping on the tip of the knife were trembling at the same speed.

Slowly, while trembling, she raised the knife towards herself.

"Liu Li."

Although the light in the room was not clear, Sakakihara Raku could still see his own image reflected on the skewed blade.

Tianhai Jiuliuli still lowered his head, it was a face that could not be seen clearly.

With Liuli's character, it was impossible for her to make this move towards herself.

But she still raised the knife tremblingly.

"Lejun. I'm sorry."

She was still afraid, and the trembling fruit knife reflected her true inner thoughts.

Even though she raised the knife to herself, she still said apologetic words.

she knows.

She knew she shouldn't have raised that thing towards her.

Sakakihara breathed calmly, and he could hear the suffocating sobs and tremors of Amami Kuruli in front of him.

".If you want to stab me, just stab me. I won't hide."

This sentence made Tianhai Jiuliuli look stunned again. It took a long time to calm down and look at him:

".Why."

She whispered, trying her best to hold back her choked voice.

Sakakihara waited for her to continue speaking.

"Why do you have to say those things about me? Can't we, everyone, be together well? Obviously, obviously in the past two months, everyone has been happily together, forming a band together, performing on stage together, and traveling together , take photos together at the scenic spots, and leave beautiful memories together.”

"Yes, everyone has been very happy these past two months. We were very happy together during the trip, and the shooting of the MV was particularly successful. This is how we have spent these past two months. But, Liuli, just because everyone is happy, it does not mean that things are not going well. It happened. So, after thinking about it, I decided to tell you."

Why can he say these things to me?

Doesn't he know how important he is in his mind?

It was he who had been encouraging himself, it was he who was willing to stand up for himself on the day when his mother slapped him mercilessly, it was he who was willing to forgive himself regardless of past grudges and for his wrong actions.

forgive?

Yes, it must be.

In fact, my brother has never forgiven himself.

All this time, I still have a grudge against myself!

That's why I calmly said to myself just now that I was dating Qiyue.

That's why he lied to himself, and that's why he lied to himself.

lied to myself

He still lied to himself.

Just like my mother, I lied to myself

Tianhai Jiuliuli raised his face. It was a face that still looked beautiful despite tears.

She clenched the trembling fruit knife with both hands, her eyes still red.

"Brother, you must still be angry, right?"

"Why are you still thinking about this?" Sakakihara tried to get closer to her.

"Brother, you must not have calmed down yet, right?" Amami Kuruuri raised the fruit knife a little higher, forcing Sakakihara Raku to stop.

"Liu Li, I don't deny that I was very angry at the time——"

"It's because my brother is still angry with me, so he did this to me, right? Because I am not very important to everyone, because I am not liked by everyone. Ling didn't like me, Qi Yue didn't like me, my aunt and I couldn't talk to each other, and even Lejun hated me."

"I have never denied you! Even at that time, I thought you had a reason to do that to me."

"How can I trust you now! You've been lying to me all this time!"

Tianhai Jiuliuli shouted loudly, his voice tearing in pain.

It was too dangerous for the emotionally unstable Amami Kuruuri to hold a knife in her hand, and Sakakihara Raku wanted to take the opportunity to pull the knife out of her hand.

"do not come!"

"Then why would Liuli be willing to believe me?"

Sakakibara walked straight over.

"Don't come over!!" Tianhai Jiuliuli's voice was a little louder, and the tip of the knife was aimed at his eyes.

Only then did Sakakibara stop.

"Liu Li, I understand how you feel at this time because I was like this before. It was painful and uncomfortable, and I kept denying myself. But now I understand what I did, so I won't defend anything. You want to leave I, I will also respect your choice, but now, I think you should put down the knife, your mood is very unstable now, don't do anything impulsive."

"Stable.? Am I unstable?"

The girl was suddenly startled.

Seeing that what he said had an effect, Sakakibara added, "Yes, Ruri, you just got caught in the rain. Is it cold? Is it uncomfortable? How about you put down the knife and talk?"

Tianhai Jiuliuli sniffed, laughed with red eyes and sour nose:

"Lejun is still telling me how to be stable now. I don't want to see you at all now."

"There are many ways to solve the problem. If you don't want to see me, I will leave immediately. You will also put down the knife and calm down, okay? I am still worried about you. I know you don't want to talk to me. I asked A Ling to accompany you. How are you doing with you? She has fallen in love with you recently and even calls you sister Liuli. Liuli, I have always hoped that you can make your own choice, whether you choose to leave me or try to continue."

Lejun is still saying these words.

Lejun is still thinking about making his own choice.

why why why why why.

Why are you still saying this to yourself!

Tianhai Jiuliuli closed her sour eyes, recalling the experience from childhood to adulthood in her mind.

choose

Have you ever had any choice?

piano?

This is what my mother gave me.

Even the skills were taught by my mother.

She told me that I was very talented and that I was the most likely person in this century to win the world championship with the youngest victory.

I still remember that when my mother said these words, her expression was full of yearning, confidence and courage.

At that time, I couldn't help but look at my hands and ask myself.

‘Really, can it be done? ’

‘Really, can you do this for your mother? ’

After my mother noticed my mood, she smiled and said to me, 'Yes, as long as it is Liuli, it will be okay. ’

After hearing my mother's words, I felt a flame in my heart. The flame made my heart beat faster, made my body temperature hot, and filled me with the power to move forward.

Yes, I can.

Liuli can do it.

'As long as I do this, I will take Liuli to see where my mother lives in the UK. It is a long street with red maple leaves on both sides and cafes full of customers. Every autumn Come, the whole street smells of maple leaves and coffee. Over there, there is a wishing fountain surrounded by white doves, a ground paved with cobblestones that have been polished by time, street artists wearing kilts playing bagpipes every afternoon, painters sketching, and pianists. We played Beethoven's Ode to Joy on the roadside for everyone. Everyone liked the air here, the season when the maple trees are covered with red leaves, and the quiet and beautiful maple leaf street. ’

Ever since my mother said this to me, I have been looking forward to the day when she can take me there.

Take a look at the red leaves all over the street, take a look at the fountain surrounded by white doves, and take a look at the streets that have been polished by time.

This sentence makes me eager to ask her to take me there every time I see my mother’s back standing on the plane in the wind.

I wanted to call my mother and ask her, ‘Can you take me there? ’

However, the response she received every time was always a flat one: 'Liu Li can go with her mother if she works harder. ’

Try harder.

Keep working hard.

This vision has stayed with me for twelve years.

Twelve years, actually at this time, I have understood that my mother may be lying to herself.

She never intended to take herself out, never intended to fulfill her words. She probably forgot that that place was probably a place she made up. She just wanted to pass a wish so that she could actively move forward in her direction and move forward in accordance with her expectations.

In the beginning, my mother would occasionally take me out to eat and buy me some gadgets as gifts.

But it was not until later that she became more and more irritable because of her mother's career slump.

Not only was she disappointed and sighing because I had not accomplished her goal, but she also denied the promise she had made and her request to take me to the amusement park to play video games because I had not accomplished her goal.

What she is willing to give herself is getting less and less

But why do I continue to follow my mother's words?

Because I think, except that I can now play the piano melody with both hands, there is no other reason to keep going.

I don't know what I want.

I don’t understand why July can be so focused on reading.

I don’t understand why Qi Qi resolutely ran out alone after returning from the trip.

She and I were only five years old at the time.

Watching her sister grabbing the money she stole from her father, watching her resolutely running out of the house, seeing her running onto the avenue, running into the distance until she completely disappeared from his sight.

The back of my sister, the firm words my sister spoke to me before leaving, my sister shook her head without listening to my dissuasion.

I still remember that I was leaning by the window of my father’s study on the second floor of the villa, watching July leave with my own eyes.

I envy her very much.

I envy my sister very much.

I also really want to be like July, and have the motivation to continue to persevere in one thing just like her.

Have dreams, goals, and expectations.

And devote infinite strength to it.

For me at that time, the only person who could achieve this condition was my mother.

So, I held on to the idea my mother gave me.

So even if I later understood that my mother was lying to me and that she was just using me and her identity as a mother, I was still willing to persevere.

Because I believe that as long as I fulfill my mother’s last wish, she will definitely take me to the place covered with maple leaves and the place where the Ode to Joy is played.

Because I know that although my mother has been using me, I am still her daughter, even if only a little bit in her mind.

But, that day, I heard a conversation between my mother and my brother.

That day I realized that my mother had already forgotten her previous promise, and she only made use of her motherhood.

She said without mercy, never treating herself as a daughter.

What she saw in me was only talent, only learning ability, and only the dream that she could not achieve when she was young.

She has never considered herself a daughter.

So, on that day, I cried.

Fortunately!

That day, someone who could understand me suddenly appeared.

He was still angry with me because I had done so much to him. He even said that he would never forgive me, but he was still willing to come over to me on that day when I was huddled in the corner crying. A relaxing hug for me.

I still remember what it felt like.

So warm.

He slowly approached me, and when he said, "I haven't forgiven you yet," he took the initiative to pull me into his arms.

I pulled the clothes on his chest tightly, squeezed my head into his arms, and tears fell on his clothes uncontrollably.

Seeing that I was really crying, he patted my back with his hand

The kind of person who holds herself in her arms and comforts her carefully.

I always remember.

From that day on, I noticed that he had changed a lot in my eyes.

He has become more handsome! It’s getting sunnier!

Smiling better.

Every time I secretly see him, my heart starts to beat faster. Every time I eat the food he cooks for me, I feel a warm current in my heart.

I really want to be close to him.

I really want to be close to him.

Fortunately, I want to hug her, and I really want him to be nice to me.

And whenever I was still wondering whether I had been forgiven by him, he would smile and tell me it was okay.

fine

This is such a heavy answer for me.

He had moved before because of this.

For this reason, I moved out of the home I had been working hard for!

Because of my own mistake.

I have seen him lock himself in his room without eating or drinking, and I have seen him keep the door of his room closed.

Seeing the calm look on his face, he then decided to move away from the family.

sorry.

I'm really sorry.

——Facing the smile he smiled at me later, the words I wanted to say to him became even more urgent.

The guilt, the warmth, the support and care he gave.

This makes me extremely determined - I can completely trust him!

I have really found the path that I have never been able to find since I was a child!

I like him.

I want to see him move forward, to see him move forward with me

But, in the end.

It's all false.

"Ruri, Ruri." Raku Sakakihara called out the name of the girl with firm eyes in his hand.

He is far less fond of his sister than his sister, far less in tune with him, far less able to make him as happy as her sister.

Dad has Aunt Sakakibara.

Mom, she is also focusing on her career.

My sister also gained the persistence she has always had.

Only oneself is superfluous.

extra.

Yes, redundant.

Tianhai Jiureli breathed in the cold air, tried hard to hold back her tears, and turned her eyes and the tip of the knife to Sakakibara Raku:

"Lejun."

"What do you want to ask Ruri?" Sakakihara was happy to see that she seemed to be calmer.

"Who am I to Lejun?"

"There are too many things to say. In short, it is very important. If you don't believe it, I will try my best to defend it."

"Really? That will put my mind at ease. In fact, I am not qualified to question you at all, Lejun. I understand."

Sakakihara Raku also took a breath, "Of course you are qualified to question me, after all, I hid it from you."

"Um"

"Feeling better?"

"It's better." Tianhai Jiuliuli said quietly.

"That's good, how about you put the knife down. Of course, if you want to stab me, then you can do whatever you want, as long as you can calm down."

"No need, Lejun." Tianhai Jiuliuli shook his head, "Lejun, actually I don't want to make the atmosphere like this."

"How about putting the knife down?"

".good."

Tianhai Jiuliuli agreed in such a low voice, relaxed the knife from the raised state, and his tone also slowed down.

Sakakibara was pleased to see that she seemed to have calmed down a lot, and he breathed a sigh of relief, and slowly began to approach her, "But I still have to say I'm sorry to you, Ruri."

"I want to know. Can you tell me why you agreed to July?"

"At first I was threatened by Qi Qi, but then I gradually understood Qi Qi's feelings, and also remembered what happened when I was a child. Indeed, I am very sorry for her."

"As expected. It is indeed the case." Tianhai Jiuliuli lowered his hands, his whole person in a state of powerlessness, "So, you can't blame Le Jun, right? After all, Le Jun told Qi Qi a long time ago After so many words, it’s no wonder she ran to Shikoku Island to look for you after she came back in July. After all, I think about it, and there’s nothing we can do about it.”

".You can't say you don't blame me."

"Lejun, what do you think now? To me, to Qi Qi."

".I said this to Qiyue. I can only give half of my love for her."

"So, Qi Qi promised you?"

"I don't know, but let's say she agreed. She didn't take any action after that."

"In July, there must be some conditions for Lejun, right?"

"Yes. If you have anything to say, Liuli, you can tell me now."

"Requests. Yes, you can actually make requests to Lejun. Lejun, you must be willing to agree to anything now, right?"

"Yes, you can tell me whatever you want, and I will agree."

"But Lejun, who has already promised to Qiyue, is no longer willing to break his promise."

"Varied--"

Sakakihara Raku's pupils suddenly widened, and Amami Kuruuri, who had gradually appeared very weak, suddenly raised the fruit knife and stabbed his body.

"wait--"

He didn't even have time to say anything.

Blood soaked her wet white shirt.